Enough Time

I wonder if I will have enough time in this life to spend with you. It seems as if there are not enough hours in a day to do any justice to your worship. At the end of each day it seems as if the day has just flown away And I failed to make contact with my Essential Self, I feel a sense of loss, a sense of regret that 1 didn't serve you like I should.

This is because of a basic error in this conditioned mind that thinks. That it is separate from you. In this sense of separation it thinks that it is a `Doer' and capable of "finding" something when in reality there is nothing Other than You. There is only You ...only You. But this sense of delusion compels me to seek, to do, to toil for You. You are right here, but this blind Mind cannot perceive You and therefore creates much noise and drama. You are not lost, but this mind thinks You are hiding and busies itself in ways to find You.

Q. How much time will this mind waste in these silly games?

A. As much time as this mind decides it can spare.

Q. How can this mind drop this sense of doership and just live as if

you are here and now? present at all times , as if this very life is being

lived, as if there is no separation?

A. By eliminating the lower self, by forgoing all sense of personal

desire and fulfillment.

Q. Is that what the Scriptures call "die while you are alive."

A. Yes.

Q. How does this understanding dawn upon me?

A. Only His Grace can make that possible.

Q. How do I qualify for His Grace`?

A. Ask for it.

I shall surely ask You each day and that this sense of separation

from You end. I know you hear my plea. You are so gentle and

loving and giving, my love, how can you refuse yourself?

Deluded Daasandaasi

Oct 2004